We make our own fairytales.

“Someone sane would make a good pick, probability of two out of three. Love, insane direction. The dependable, we started off young. Feeling the age, we both grew up. Everytime I fall, everytime I need a pillar of trust faith love strength belief, all the ingredients needed to put one back together. You provide, unconditionally. Time after time, I disappoint everyone including myself. You weren’t of me. The doors were never closed, each and everytime walked out on. At times, taking that for granted is frightening. All glimming of positivity when everyone saw none. Not in position to decide in your place. No obligations you have. When two people really loves each other, they will eventually find their way back together. The lover, clarity. Overwhelming of guilt, not love. The one that walked out, the one. All could have been fine, if there was strength to be strong. All was walked out on. Felt like the entire world of comfort tumbled down, the trust died that instant. Building it so quickly was impossible, salvaging it slowly was hopeless. This depth is excruciating.The trust is key, the main died. Taking the leap of faith, would it have killed or end off like a fairy tale the end. Neither would ever know, regret sets in. Everyday like an uphill battle, fighting against every image every thought. Every action, every illiterate decision made, comes with a reason.”

“Here it goes again. Should be mugging away, or probably call it a day. But after i realized, it’s all that’s in the head. Sometimes, does my mind think of more than it should then think about thinking and it adds on. That’s complicated, didn’t get that either. Was told, something i couldn’t see but now not want to admit. People’s opinions and judgment matter too much. Doesn’t that affect not just myself, but people all around. Life would be easier that way if words don’t have an effect, if one’s mental strength than those around that judge are the strongest. So strong, that no one could bring us down. There’s this urge, prompting desire to take over. The promise made, keeps trouble away. Keep hating on, that is not easy to take. No expression of love, comes overflowing of hatred. Not blaming, that was how it was suppose to be. Supposed, i suppose. Constantly by day, noticed that it became more of a routine. Knowing gives the slightest satisfactory of being delusional, playing a minor role of yours. Now silly thoughts, self consolation. All the optimistic angles possible, the pessimist never gives in. Still vulnerable through it all, but definitely tougher. Credit is yours to keep.”

Terry Richardson X Lindsay Lohan

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“People get disappointed with others, but people are disappointment themselves as well. Some chose not to accept, some do not see it. Burden in life, nothing but problems that revolves around everyone nearby. God’s saying or self doings. Intentions are simple, lead a everyday life. Plain but happiness comes with simplicity. Sign of failure or time to conquer, ponder. Living isn’t just breathing, but hit pause please. Falling apart base on own doings. A friend in need a friend indeed. Somewheres missing.”